Today is the beginning

Today has become the beginning.
I have decided.
I truly have.
Today is either the beginning of my end, the end of looking into the mirror and not seeing the morphed fat they say anorexics do...but of seeing THIS. I am tired of disliking my body, of noticing those awkward moments in which i turn and there is an unsuspecting object suddenly turning before my eyes into a mirror of sorts. It is a reflection of me and I don't like it.
Today I will begin to count down.
Yes. I am pathetic at this but what else can you do? It is now cleansing and from there on I will eat only fruits, vegetables, water. For at least a month. I will begin to lose this fat. All of this. It is like an addiction I know but I will accustom my body to it.
I never thought I would get to this point but everyone does eventually and there really isn't much you can do about it besides hope for the best.